Morning selfie with the kids. #puppies #family #
Day 34: video game
Sorry for the post delay. There wasn’t much that happened today that was really worth mentioning. But to recap just so You the reader knows.
I was able to finish my revisions for my romantic poet essay, it was on my favorite early romantic too. William Wordsworth, his personification of nature in his poems including his search for transcendence spoke to me in allot of ways; I’m happy I was able to study him more on it. Took me a while cause I wanted to get it just right And I’m pretty confident in it.
Couldn’t workout again today Mr.slop (my trainer) had to do a presentation for his economic class. Would’ve went alone since It’s a free day but weight room was closed And Mr.slop is the only one who knows how to sneak in. So very,very,sad.
But what did happen today was I got more in-depth working on one of my game ideas. It’s for the recruiter game, the name is Still not set so It’s called the recruiter project. I basically got an idea of who the main character is And the other side chracters including abilities And back stories. I even got a small idea on my other game.
Anonymous asked: Dude! I thought u were fit. U have a belly. I love ur fake smile btw.
Yo! I don’t mind having a belly, You can be fit And Still have a belly I’m in my bulking phase Still that’s why. Thanks, I was told that’s the closest thing to my actual smile so I tried my best to show it might be real. Pretty good eye noticing that. Hood morning everyone BTW happy Friday.
Putting the kids to sleep Goodnight everyone! #family #puppies
Day 33: commitment And a question for the readers
I think allot about how committed I truly feel to my efforts of the big plan. And I haven’t been this committed to something other than my dream to become a successful game designer. Soon I’ll have more pictures to post of my body success And by far my exes are happy about it A hasn’t said anything yet but S has And he said to keep up the good work. Of course ill keep up the good work it only drives me forward to keep it up. Soon I’ll be at college studying game design for my BFA And in San Francisco of all places I’ll feel more at home there just like at my exes home.
A question for the reader:
Hey guys been meaning to ask how you feel about my updates, And how I’m progressing through the start of my life at my young age. you don’t leave comments either I Snyder mind the attention really I feel myself a romantic I never understood the term till this final year of school. My romantic quest to find my place of belonging. Including friendship And companionship I wouldn’t mind making friendship with my readers so give me a message And we can talk it up.
Day 32: naps
I’ve been working out allot lately. Enough that It’s been making me very very sleepy And by the time I get home from school I’ll crash And let my fatigued muscles rebuild themselves (after I eat a shit load of high And healthy protein rich foods or just a protein bar And some milk).
My naps go off for about two hours basically saying from 2-4 And 3-5 pm Pacific standard time I’ll be knocked out in the most awkward sleep position with my dogs butt in my face (I’ve woken up to this trust me). So you’ll see a post from me by the end of those times so be sure to be around then.
Day 31: working out is turning me on?
Today was a great day for assistance training And also now these is going to be a club for those of us that truly do work out! No more douchebags having us lose our working out time because they just stand around.
I usually do assistance work on Tuesday’s And Thursday today was triceps like it usually is. And it was so good! I was a little freaked out to be honest. During a few of my sets I felt an AMAZING feeling during it. It was like I was close to climaxing! And it made me want to work out more And more!
But I don’t think that’s a good thing I didn’t really feel any muscle work until after but if I couldnt then what if I workout so much that I want to feel that orgasm feeling again then what if I hurt myself? But that’s just me I’ll get the feeling next time.perpetual And I’ll enjoy it then. *////*
Getting bigger day by day taking it steady!
I’m glad the big plan is showing It’s success so far!
Day 30: disappointment And happiness
my trainer disappointed me today i found out last week he broke his cutting diet. He didn’t care if I was least I hope not he just joked about it. But I felt really bad he encourages me so much in the weight room but finding out he did that made me feel like I got gave him a car And he just punches me as a thank you. I don’t know it was like he wait no he pretty much got my trust And stabbed it. I was happy to help someone And my help just pretty much meant nothing. I just wish he understood really.
Since I started working out I weight 172# ‘s And now I weigh 183#’s! How happy can I get! I mean all my efforts did so good! If I do even more I could get to my minor goal of 200#’s in no time!! The big plan is doing so good you guys! Keep reading And wishing me luck.
Anonymous asked: I know you think about your exes a lot, but who's this mysterious third person you talk about?
As much as I would like to tell you all, sadly I cannot. It would have been best for me to omit this person. This persons life is to busy for me And I have already confessed to him. I’m hoping in the future we can become friends but these feelings I’m having are too strong And It’s hard to think or see this person. Until It’s okay with me And said person he is to remain anonymous until my future pans out.
Maybe a year or a few months or when I start college. But It’s too complicated.
Still need more toner, but I like it!
Reminded me of yeevil you bug loving awesome guy.
I didn’t think bug discussions could get so intense.
Day 16-27: anguish to happiness and I’m still lost
Disclaimer: I have been reading Frankenstein recently and the way I articulate my words on here will resemble this.
It’s very difficult to write this post. In fact it’s sinking me deeper and deeper into my own sadness that I’m barely posting this now. And I find it so difficult that I’m doing this for all of you.
during those days I was in the same place I was when I was with my dad, putting on a fake smile worrying to much.
From days sixteen to eighteen I found myself thinking about my exes again. And that same person was on my mind during so. I thought I’m forever forgotton, and I’ll never be able to speak the people that have done the best job at helping me find my happiness and planting the seeds for me to become the best me I can be.
A few days after I was able to shake these feelings and focus on my school work and powerlifting, during so my trainer was stuck and needed help with cutting because he could never break his eating habits. And I was able to get over some emotions I was having to get him this information. And I felt extra happy I was able to help someone and the next few days I felt like my fake happiness was real for some time.
This ended shortly after and I was sunk lower again and I felt like I won’t ever talk to my exes again. But picked back up when A sent me a few words I was elated! And I was hoping time speak with him more but sadly he never messaged back and we never spoke since.
Sorry everyone but the days proceeding to now are just too much to recollect and all I can remember is my uncontrollable sadness. I would cry myself to sleep sometimes and wake up feeling to myself what a miserable wretch I am fretting over such things. I need to keep myself from worrying so much, if I see them though I’ll finally be at ease. All this uncertainty is putting me through so many issues.
I’m continuing this post on to let you know that today I’m still feeling this anguish. I’m still lost and uncertain and I have not yet completed what I need to complete.
I will make them proud and I will have them in my life again. I need my best friends again I need my family again.
Okay here it goes guys I love it it sounds amazing. Action adventure fantasy.
“Where am I? “
"What oh your dead walk this way please."
"What how am I … D-dead!?"
"You’re just dead nothing to it can’t fix gone after life walk this way."
"Can’t I fix it? This has to be a mistake please you…
Something I wrote about a few years ago. Let me know what you guys think again I might definitely continue this.
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While I was at school today my cable and internet was installed so I’ll be sure to post more often now. But remember it’s only going to be one post a day from now on so I’m not always devoted to being on here all the time.
Tomorrow I’ll give you guys a better update of what has happened since my absence. I’m glad that those of you have stayed and I’m glad for your patience.